While it is "the most wonderful time of the year," I sit in the library, on my birthday, procrastinating my final essays due throughout the next two weeks. I have 28 minutes until my next class. I really don't want to go. I am in need of a mental health day.
It isn't even so much that I haven't done anything all semester. I have. I feel like I have been working my tail off all year. And the thing that scares me? It may be for nothing. Although I will come out of all of this with a degree in English-Creative Writing, I will have no job. No income. Aren't we supposed to graduate college, land a great job, find your soulmate, start a family, and live happily ever after? That is the American Dream right?
I shouldn't be too scared I guess. I am totally ok with working a part-time job, or a just get by job in order to keep going. Ed Abbey put it right when he said, "Enjoy the leisure of the leisure class." Find what you love to do and get after it. Why do something you hate to do in order to make money? Why not find the one thing you love to do in life and just do it. Thank you, Nike.
I took the LSAT a year ago. I took it for various reasons. Because landing a job as a lawyer would be friggin' sweet. Making bank would be nice as well. But I did it mainly because I was told I couldn't. I would not make a good lawyer. Because I had values, morals, and strong, classic ideals about life and how it should be lived. Now, if you were to ask this person today why it is they said these things, they would deny it. To the core of their being. However, they did say it. My taking the test is a testament to it. But they would deny it, because I received a good score. Which means, they get to brag. Saying they "always knew I would be a lawyer." The person who would make a great lawyer? My brother. He would be kick-ass hard core litigant.
I just cannot see myself in a courtroom or behind a desk. Never. Notebooks filled (literally no white space what-so-ever) are only a hint as to what I would like to do. Although I don't think I am capable of it. It is scary and yet exciting to see what the upcoming months will hold. It scares the living bajeebers out of me. But I am excited nonetheless.
If you have any pennies... Pass them my way will ya? Those bad boys add up!